An Occasional Outburst + Quotable Quotes

It is as if I'm thrown in a vicious rat race, unknowingly used as a pawn. The complexities of it all poisons my heart and mind, sowing seeds of doubt... or are they irreversible facts that fails to catch my eye? Amorousness had me yearning, which sparked me being caught, somewhat surprisingly, in the hierarchical web of relations. Hypocrisy, a tool undertook by the "noble", got the better of the "peasant" in me, had every intention to place huge obstacles in my path though expressed otherwise. Nonetheless, left without options, I remained "enslaved", suppressed and messed about, for my addiction to the antidote was constant.
As vacillating and baffling it may be, little was known with regards to integrity... the cyberworld "coincidence", name on the cell, an endless stream of connections... fucking with my mind. At the end, for self-preservation's sake and to keep a certain amount of consciousness, before I begin to lose my nerve, I held a grip on myself and closed the lid tight... Shutting out from this mindless game, created by the senseless and played by the shameless. Least, my mind is not poisoned...
A case of not practising what you preach or words taken in the wrong context? I believe in the visual. And learnt not to look at the surface of things... A deeper meaning awaits your enlightenment if it shall be chosen to dig deeper, as similar to looking at a health warning on a packet of cigarettes... just to know what are you in for. Turning a blind eye to the spite-inducing strategies is my final solution chosen by my maturity.

Thanks to Lionel, taken from his MSN nick...
"Being perfect is about being able to look your friends in the eye and know you didn't let them down..."