Re-Solutions and Horrorscope

So here I find myself raring to go in 2005. Somehow or rather, I've got a sneaky feeling that this year may not turn out well for me again. Life never fails to disappoint, does it? Perhaps, just perhaps, my life will start proper once 2006 beckons but thats another 365 days to go. Coincidentally, I get to convert back into a civillian too when that happens but to be exact, I've got roughly about 504 days of my life to waste away in the useless military but who's counting anyway? A brand new fresh start as they say for this brand new year. It is during this period of time when most people start to put their lives into perspective. Having witnessed and experienced all that our life brought to us the year before, this is the time for us to put things correct again and not let history repeat itself. Which is why I guess people have a habit of making resolutions in the new year.

However, new year resolutions are not something that I'm exactly very keen on. Mine have always been broken year after year without fail. And when the year is about to come to an end, I'll begin to regret all that I've set out but fail to do. To put things simply this year and to be kind to myself, I shall not make any resolutions but just hope to live life happily no matter how it may turn out to be.

Another aspect which people will definitely look at every new year would be their respective outlook for their horoscope. Regardless of the different references available, they provide a detailed summary of what to expect, avoid etc. All in all, it just eases our mind and calm our heart when it comes to expecting the unexpected, especially in a new year. No matter what horoscope you belong, there's bound to be something really good to look forward to in the year, which is why I find some horoscope predictions pretty ridiculous. This is one for Gemini which I read from 8 Days not too long ago...

Gemini
Your romantic stars are in top form until October. As the year progresses, your social life begins to connect up with your work - could it be that romance is brewing on the professional front? It is certainly indicated that personal relationships will be a critical factor in the success of developments at work. Like the grain of sand in the oyster that produces the pearl, so does friction have its own creative potential as love blossoms in unexpected areas.

I was amazed and stunned upon reading that. Well for starters, I'm a full-time national serviceman for god's sake. If what they say is accurate, I'm either turning into a really obnoxious homosexual or I'm about to fall for the aunty serving me food at the cookhouse. I really don't think I'll fall in love with my commanders even if I'm a desperate case. With most of them being regulars, they are the last thing that I'll ever want to get close to. Hmm... very worrying indeed. This may explain my bad luck with the opposite sex all this while. Unless I ever get a miraculous change of occupation this year (which is highly unlikely) or a gorgeous lady signs on for the military (which is quite impossible too) and get posted to my camp, I really hope that was a wrong call.

Rewind 2004

Here I am, spending the last minutes of a dull and depressing 2004, compiling the happenings and memories of the past year as I cross into a new 2005. A night of peace and serenity, away from the rowdy and noisy horde of people who prefer spending the night counting down with millions of unknown people, save for the few of their friends. Well, not that I belong to the anti-social kind but I somehow feel that there isn't much to celebrate for anyway. We should spare a thought for those affected by the tsunami disaster, missing and dead alike, those whose homes and families wrecked in an instant. A sad way to end 2004, lost as they head into 2005. Right, here is my 2004...

Jan
The beginning of a new year, looking forward to life after 12 years of education. Just came back from a Bangkok trip with two other friends and looking forward to the well-deserved and long break ahead. Casting the thought of enlisting into the military away from my head as I enthusiastically start work at Carrefour as a cashier.
Feb
Midway through the long break, work fatigue starts to take its toll on me. Enjoyed the festivities during Chinese New Year though. A slightly different Valentine's Day from last year as I just went through a breakup not long ago. Assigned to guide and teach a new cashier at work nearing the end of February. This was how I met R. Dreaded the arrival of March.
Mar
Left Carrefour and R a week into March due to the damn enlistment at the end of the month. Promised myself to keep in contact with her no matter what. Arranged a memorable KTV session with close friends to "see" me off. As far as I know, life for me ended on the 30th of March, 2004 at 1400 hrs. Gone with it, my civillian identity, my ability to make sense and my freedom. Hated the Singapore Arm Forces to the core.
Apr - Jun
Little idea of what happened in my life throughout this time. Lost touch of reality and life. Seem to be in a limbo, whether in camp or out free. An unwilling prisoner of cruel and senseless measures. Its a wonder that I even survived the seemingly impossible BMT. Graduated at last but suffered a back injury in late May. Got R a birthday gift on May 7th. Turned 19 on May 30th. Passed out of BMT in June.
Jul - Aug
Initially had the idea that life after BMT could be much better and the misconception that BMT is just about it. Got posted to a pretty old and rundown unit as an engineer. Life couldn't be much worse, could it? Determined to fight for a better life and vocation too, could not bear the thought of spending another 2 years as an engineer. A vocation with the logistics department would be more humane. Got downgraded due to medical condition in August and became a store logistician. Started this blog in August after a long absence.
Sept - Oct
Adapting to life as a storeman slowly but surely. Not as depressed as before when in the early days. Sent for a couple of logistics tasks along with the unit when they were out for exercises and learnt to get by. Celebrated birthdays too as they came quick and fast, especially at this period. Also, a memorable September too as I was presented with the exclusive opportunity to know a wonderful and lovely girl, Right Girl as I call her.
Nov - Dec
Tagged along with the unit as they went on a real mission cum operation at Jurong Island. Quite an eye-opener and also a good assignment as we get off days every alternate day. Concluded in mid November and was to get a change of vocation at the end of November. Now known as an armskoteman, in charge of the store for weapons. Much more risky and dangerous but took it in my stride with not much fuss. No big deal anyway, its not as if I get to walk out away from military life. Plenty of work to do in the armskote and adapted to a different beat along with my new partner at work. Had a lonely Christmas. Celebrated it by walking down town with a close friend of mine, admiring the lightings and night scenery. Finished up the year 2004 by completing this rewind. A happy 2005 to myself and anyone reading still reading up till this last sentence...

May 2005 be better for all of us, and the world.